I Miss You!

I miss the way my heart skips a beat when i hear your voice
i miss the way my world lit up when you entered the room
i miss the way your hand always found mine
i miss how our bodies fit together like they were meant for each other
i miss the way my head fit your shoulder just perfect
i miss the long phone calls that lasted late into the night
i miss it all.....
the way your hair hung in your eyes
the way you always found that right spot
the way you'd make me feel so special id cry
the way you youd say my name
the way you said i love you
i miss you and everything you do....

Therapy

I've decided that I'll treat this blog as my personal therapist.

I look back over the past few months and I see the number of people I've lost. I've always thought the problem was with them, but, recently it's been like the problem is me and not them.

Problem remains the same every single time, no one knows a clue about what's going on with me.

Yesterday, I've decided to make peace with my mother's side of the family after I've realized that I am losing a lot of people in my life and I am left with nothing but being alone. I wish I hadn't actually try to mend ties with that side of the family, because somehow they only managed to make me feel worse than I was before.

I need to go visit my mother, just tell her what's wrong with me and maybe just cry over there. I need a mother's hug, to tell me everything is going to be ok and to guide me on what to do.

I have so much to say and nothing wants to come out.

Here's to the dark days I'm living and ones much darker to come.