Numb

I thought it would be getting easier now, but, it certainly is not.

The stuff that bring me warmth and security are being taken away from me. It only makes my world a colder place. How unfair to be given the comfort and then taken from you. I feel like a drug addict going through withdrawals except that mine are a million times worse.

How do you expect me to see you and not kiss your hand just to show you how thankful I am to have you in my life?

How do you expect me to see you and not hug you just to show you how much I've missed you when I don't see you, even if it was for a day or a few hours?

How do you expect me to see you and not kiss you, even though you know that your lips are like a drug to me?!

I'm in no mood to write and in no mood to do anything else. I'm in the dark tunnel and can't seem to see the light even though I know it's there.

Just numb.